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Saturday, October 07, 2006

I hate it when everyone esle is in church and I'm home.

My mum is so NOT fair, my sis can go to out/church but not me. It's the same church, same cg and same pastors. What's the difference? Just because I'm more committed to God?

It make me so not in the mood for everything else. To think that she treat me like a little kid. Bring me out for ice-cream? It's not a big thing to me or to her. A cup of ice-cream is not even 5% of her daily wages and I can afford it myself. I'm not a cheapskate. A cup of ice-cream to exchange for my emotions. NO WAY!

I dont knw what my mum treat me as lah. From friends to basketball to attire to cosmetics to church, she nvr approved of any of it at all. She nvr knw, she was

the one who led me to ALL the suicidal thoughts from banging my head on the wall & edges of table to over-dozing of panadols to cutting my wrist just to get my hp back.

I hate it when everyone else at home is trying their BEST to rub salt into my wound. It's not my fault at all.

Sometimes I do regret that I didnt get my mum to work in Vietnam when she asked for my opinion. I only answered her with whatever.

Well, I'm not gna stop going to church. Thank God that I've the freedom to go shopping. Just some make-up and I dont look like I'm going to church.

truly, madly, deeply[5:11 PM]